I'm pretty sure my sister suspects. She saw a few of the scratches near my knee and asked about them. I told her that our dog did it. Then today we were going through the bag of books I checked out from the library this afternoon and she found Cut by Patricia McCormick. She asked me why I got it in this really transparent voice. She's never questioned my choices before; we're both very well-read. I told her just because.
I've also not been eating well and I've been sleeping a lot. Thank God I have therapy tomorrow. I feel so fucked up right now. It's taking a huge effort just to write this post in a coherent manner.
I kind of hate myself right now.
I want to tell you to quit, but I that know it's going to take a lot more than that to take the urges away. Just know that if you ever need someone to talk to about anything, I'm here.
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Therapist aren't the only ones you can talk too...you have loving friends...
ReplyDeleteagreed. text me anytime you wanna talk. I'll try my hardest to be there for you. There are lots of others who will too. <3
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